This is week 13 of TWP timeline.
Just submitted the AIN project. I didn't complete it well. Most of our time has been given to teamwork.
I feel a bit stress and I can sense it among the classmates. There's even one group that has to change the TWP project idea at very late stage, then went through tough group discussions.
With very little sleeps, I am getting weaker. Weaker in my fighting will, weaker in my rationality, weaker in my hope of making the best out of everything.
We were not doing very well in our last week alpha test. But the following Saturday we got out vending machine delivered to IIS. We're so happy! In the clouds of uncertainty, facing questions and commends from the tutors, we are really worry if we can make it. But we press on and find ways to make it work. When the TV and the vending machine frame came in to IIS, we are on fire again. To boost our hope and motivation in making it happen, I told the members, if we got it completed, we do good documentation and send it to competition! I hope that everything that we do are for the better cause. Everyone then became excited again.
We really hope that this week when we meet the tutors, our effort will finally be seen and they will understand that we are doing our best to make our project work. As last week we really had hard time with the tutors. We got comments repetitively about the colour treatment of the ui. And I took some time to convince the design head to improve the design. And we got no machine to show in alpha, only projection on the wall explaining the experience as much as we can. So, with the vending machine frame, TV and further exploration of Kinect and Processing, we hope that we could show more to the tutors so to assure them that our group are ok.
But I got shock in today's discussion in the meeting with tutors.
With our excitement, yet we see worry and slightly angry faces toward us. Strangely not towards other groups. I felt confused. With what I can observe and critically analyse, these are the below scenario:
To get Kinect work well with GUI design we got, I need to understand the authoring software, Processing, and the way Processing algorithm works. So it took me very long time to source for script library and sources to connect the UI design with Processing. While I'm working in IIS before meeting with tutors for discussion, one of the tutor came straight into my station and asked if I found my technical support to get the program work. I believed it came as a concern and care, although it was expressed in slightly demanding way. I got pressured and offended personally. With the addition of really don't want to over promise what I can achieve, I replied that I'm not sure, but I'll try to show the outcome in the scheduled tutorial hour. And I was directed to another tutor for more technical consultation.
In my heart, I think that I want to learn the technology and programming. I want to make it work. It's just that I'm not familiar enough with the programming language style and it's logic structure, so I really hope to explore further to see it work. I guess my way of reply has also in return offended the tutors. I am confused with the positioning I am in. As a colleague and as a student, I have a point of view. And I think that a teacher will sees the heart of the learner and know that teacher and learner can work together and learn to create an outcome. But I do not know why, the tutors seem to be very unhappy.
I kept thinking that if I can get the project done, the unhappy moment will be gone, because tutors' worry will be gone.
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